I feel… so much lighter for some reason.

That line is cheesy I know, but that’s just how I feel right now. For the last 5 years I’ve been trying to hold on to something ungraspable in the first place. I’m slowly letting go and I guess… you’re making this easier for the both of us. I really thought we had a future— but then you chose to distance yourself and you kept shunning me away until it was too late to go back to anything.

And now I’m concentrating on things that I think would make me happy. I’m still a bit scared cuz now I’m not sure what my future would be— but I guess the restraint and obligation I felt was dragging both of us down and it wasn’t good for any of us. You’ve changed… I’ve changed. I shouldn’t have made you wait that long. I shouldn’t have made us both wait. 

Now I’m learning to let go. I’m starting to let go.

I was happy with you. None of it was a lie. But now I’m gunna start doing things that makes me happy… even if it means it would be without you.

Maybe I lost some weight… with all that dilly-dallying.